Endure

Yesterday, Arifin reminded us about the possibility of heavy rain with some lightning by midnight. Well, it did not happen, but there was some lightning though...

This afternoon was very hot! Both me and Ester are thinking to undress ourself, but considering
there is a number of boys around the house, I think it would not be a wise idea!

*sjonge jonge! A flash of lightning just happened together with its thunderclap!*

Alstair, Miki and Arifin came by as we have a meeting for the B-SM paper! The meeting did not last for long, besides it was too hot that none of us would like to do anything. We make a quick meeting and divide the work. Hopefully, by the end of this week everything is completed.

Since I just had a bed rest for a day due to catching cold, I spent at least one hour to take a nap this afternoon. Miki and Alstair cook Asperges with some chicken - won't comment much on the rice hahaha :D. Thank God that I have some friends around when I was ill. I recalled how suffer it was when I have to get up from my bed just to feed myself with some food and medicine - which actually you feel pain all over your body. Thank you Lord!

A few days ago - or maybe weeks/months maybe - I was kind of in denial. It was a very light denial, but still I am living in denial and I hate that! I am actually not sure if it is wise to tell you the story, but in brief it was about somebody who 'left' unnoticed. To make it short, the case was about your responsibility towards a person... and my denial was:

• ah... (s)he is too busy to make a call
• (s)he has promised sth before... I am sure (s)he remember it...
• maybe... (s)he knew that I was in a busy period and being nice not to disturb
• with all the bladi bladi bla bla....

hahaha... turns out that I was wrong. Look, I did not blame anyone but I am just wondering if this was nice or kind way to be a friend.

Yet from all the issues I had, I am happy that I met this person. (S)He taught me a lot - but I was not able to say thank you. I have always believed that anyone Lord allows to pass in my life will bring up something good in my life - you know it as "Everything happens for a reason". It is so true.

The point that I learn is how short life could be and that each of us plays a role in this life. Everyone of us is not JUST HAPPENED to be in this path, but we HAVE a REASON to be in that path. Since last year, I followed a bible study from my church and ever since I see God speaks to me. I am not sure if I have ever write about my prayers, but one of my commitment on prayer is asking God to give me the heart of an obedient disciple.

As time goes by, I did see how the standard of my personal life has been changed dramatically. I remember the word of endures - which was lately nailed down by several people surrounding me. When this 'irresponsible' issue come out, I am sort of wow... this is the TRUE meaning of endures.

**Ok... I did not mean that I had never got the point of endures, but this time it teaches me to endures**

and let me quote it directly from my devotion article:

Endure comes from the Greek word hupomeno. Hupo translates "to bear up under a weight or a burden."Meno means "to continue or remain." To continue to bear up under the weight of difficulties does not give the impression of running away or changing circumstances. It paints a picture of staying the course in complete submission, and obedience to Jesus.

(June 5, Our Journey, RBC ministry 2007)

The orange highlighted sentence is what strikes me most! A few hours before I read that article, I was struggling on if I need to act on this issue... of course there is pro/contra on my idea.. but at the end it's about my choice. My question that pop up in my head was "but.. If I don't act on this issue, (s)he would not get how unkind (s)he was! It is like me asking God I want a good mark and please help me in the exams without doing any efforts" I then pray to the Lord and ask for His wisdom - and He gave me that quotes!

This is also the one of the coolest verse in the bible:
Romans 12: 19-21
19Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: "It is mine to avenge; I will repay," says the Lord. 20On the contrary: "If your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink. In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head." 21Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

(thanks Randy for reminding me... four thumbs up for our friendship)

Well, I have more nothing to say besides I thank you Lord for your loyalty, fairness and love. Again, my prayer is to live according to your word, loving you more and more each day till the end of my life, and be the woman of God. Did you know that this person also taught me to be the woman of God! It's amazing, isn't it?

Keep your heart close to the Lord, his love and wisdom shall shine upon you!
TRUST Him in all times!

I will talk about the my view on woman soon... hopefully after my exams elapsed!

Have a nice day!

Paqi