Two Days to Christmas

Right... here I am early morning *well, it's 1.10 AM - count it as morning ok* doing some creative works of making 'thank you' card for Matthew. Fun, but since I have not worked on some creative works again since I arrived in NL, it is tiring - but still fun!!!

So, what have I done for today? Hahaha.. guess what, I am going out again and again... go shopping - well to be exact, going out with my friend, accompanying him to buy some christmas gift for his girlfriend, parents, bro and sist. Hmm.. honestly, it is kinda hard to find a gift for somebody... *now I admit it* well, yeah... I mean it is human sense (and will of course) to gift something best to their loved one. You either want to give something they like or want. Yet, sometimes we don't really know what they want (at the moment - can you read sb mind???) or maybe know as well, but we can not afford it. * damn!*

Other things that makes your heat *cenut-cenut* - eng: dizzy?!? - is when you bought something that you think they gonna love it, but eventually he/ she did not. *imagine the feeling, I will definitely annoyed!!!* So, learning from the experience, we do more carefull to select a present. That is why sometimes finding present is such a burden task!

I , myself, was not intended to buy anything... but when I was wandering around ZARA, I found this little mini skirt **mind me, the size is 36 (EUR)** I was staring on it for quite a while *holding it as well actually :P* and thinking if it fits me. no more than 3 seconds, i decided to try it on together with other same colours trousers.
** what a surprise, it fits! **
WOW!!! Since when did I get slim??? Happy, of course... but then my mind start thinking on "hmm... is it too short etc?" I finally call Mirna as I definitely have no idea what to do... buy or let it go... but then when I looked back to my fashion history, I have no mini skirt people!!! I feel bad as I am a definitely girl - woman eventually - but have no skirt!!! ***Gees***

So I got the skirt, and keet (kept) the receipt in the case when I want to return the goods. Out from Zara, we went to Peek & Cloppenburg - more choices for him but seems that he no more in the mood to find one... so we went to moccamore (dunno if it's right spelling) and get some coffee. Talk a bit... and finally we went to Media Markt *Oh... I love this store* and look here and there... and finally end up our shopping day there... he want back to his parking lot, and naturally I head back to home...but hahahha :) shopping by your own is the greatest time ever... No one staring at you - waiting or just accompanying, no need to bother if somebody get bored because of your silly act - maybe, and the most of all time is all yours...

I went to HEMA, and buy some colourfull paper and headback home....

My analysis of the day, I am happy to see people's face today... they seems happy for the christmas is coming of course, but the feeling of missing home badly is really killing me... yeah.. christmas use to be the only occasion where we all meet (my aunt comes home to Surabaya), some of us meeting friends from abroad, or just being in the home where your parents are, is really the best things of all...

Must admit, I miss home badly... though in a few days Germany would be the holiday destination... Hopefully, christmas holiday brings many happiness and courage to finish my master asap....

So people,... this is my story for now.. I kinda tired and tomorrow have to go to check my eyes!!!
Hope you all have a nice merry christmas wherever you are....

PaQi

Obedience

I know that some of you maybe wondering why I would bring this topic out of surface. Well, first, this is my challange throughout the week and most probably going to be on the next couple of weeks and the coming year.

*eventhough the new years resolution was not ready yet*

I might not mention it before how I was 'sent back' to Holland. Hmm, maybe worth to spill out the story a little bit.

Year 2006 is the year where my life transformed to a responsible situation. I learned to survive, to lean on God and to understand about truth. Before I graduated from my bachelor, on the way of finishing my thesis and internship, I prayed to God and ask for his 'favour' in my life... I asked for the chance of getting me near and feel his love more than before - must say that I was stuck in the same level for these years. I was given the chance and here I am in Rotterdam, studying my graduates degree.

The only thing that makes this happens I believe is because my reason to be obedient. That's my only prayer to Him. I received so many blessings, awesome experiences and meeting so many blesses people. I am happy and the very best of all is my family, dad & mom as well as my brother, living healthy and happy. This is the best present God has given me for this year. Yet, it does not mean that I did not reach the lowest point. Breaking up with somebody I love and cherish is hurt, but the two of us know that this was the best way... We do care about each other and therefore would not like to hurt one another. We seperate in a good way and we do keep in touch and help each other.

Few days ago, Lord allows me to face a new test. The test where your obedience was questioned. I know that I can easily fall to the world by just following my flesh, but the heart and mind knocking the obedience. I want what it was offered, but I don't know if this is good things to do. I dreamt about it.... but I don't want to be dragged from the right track.

My obedience was questioned. Really....
It is really simple task, I want it... yet my heart and mind was yearning for obedience.
Lord, the heart of obedience that is what I am asking for....

Dinner was a quality time for me... especially with the 314 sister's...
They do encourage me to obey the Lord for he is counting your obedience and will reward it... I love the way they continue their life... a living obedience person... that is the only thing I have always wanted to learn.

*thank you for your support sists*

Lord, the only one who mighty and fulfilling one...
I pray for the obedience... please keep me in your love... the unfailing love ever...
I will never forget the 'first love' where you hold me tight and forgave me....
You are more than anything to me

Love you so much

Blessed - as always!

I know that I supposed to study... but this excitement cannot wait till tomorrow!

Look at what I have got from my convivial, blessed, and fulfilled by Our forever God, JC! Yes, a CD - a True Worshippers (TW) newest and fully blessed CD "Captivated".

I am so happy and really being blessed by this. I am happy that it signed by one of the worshipper, Sidney Mohede - though I am hoping all of the worshippers can sign it.


I guess all of you know who is TW and Sidney is. Well, just fyi, I do like Sidney's project on Surrender. This album is awesome, I am trully blessed by the song and the worshipping 'atmosphere' brought by him .

To my housemate, Chooke!!!
You rock dude!!! I will not forget your 'hardwork' :) - I am so happy, till dunno how to continue my study. Really!

I am trully captivated by You my Lord

First day of December the 2006

Point to ponder:

• Exam preparation - coming next week and the week after
  
• Holiday season plans - the week after the exam last
  
• A month-to-go for self assessment
• and A month-to-go on constructing next year resolutions and goals

About to do:

• Study
• Wash my huge pile of clothes
• Tidy (read: clean up) my room
  

Story to tell:

• when my God defends me in my difficulties or sorrow

I actually just realised when one of my besties text me and said: I am entering the first day of December. "I love X'mas" he said.

We just finished our research proposal; and thus, I was not in-focus
takes 5 second to think

I then remembered that it was the last day of November of 2006 - I was about to grumble, why he was so happy, but i discontinue my irritated side due to exam preparation.
Like I have mentioned before I am in the mission (and will be me vision of life too) on being obedience to my Savior and Redeemer. I won't comment on whoever your "God" is or whatever your "religion" is, but despite those differences, it is a matter of what you believe. I believe that when it is time, then you will know what I am talking about - as you are chosen to be His! (Ecclesiastes 3:1)

In my "new journey" in finding the truth about His mighty God, I really see that He enrich me every day. He works in many aspects of me using any methods. Most of the time, he answer my curiosity or even when I "have a fling" in my mind about the ideal world according to me.
Today through The Our Daily Bread, I got reminded of many things:

During my exam prep, I always grumble to God, complaining why should I do the exam bla bla bla... which at the end it can lead to "I should have just go back not continue my study" and another bla bla bla... (see, it is negative!!! Never ever enjoy such attitude)
Then, He answers me that basically everything has its own timing. There is a time where you can sit, playing around, and enjoying your life etc, but there is the time to workhard - and this is the time. Besides, to be in the next level, somebody has to be tested to prove his/her capability.

Thank you Lord

Other thought that came to me was about fairness. Why should there be any third world country? I don't get it. When I see the stories and all the documentation of this people, I always ask why. Yet, again he answers me through the reading of the bible.
Here Ecclesiastes 3: 17 states: "God is going to judge the righteous and the evil alike, because everything, every action, will happen at its own set time"

I believe in you Lord

Holiday is also a main issue for me. It cost me a bomb if I follow my greediness. I think I will just follow what my pocket says.

My first personal assessment and new years resolution also part of my to do list this year end. I have never made it before, but I think it worth to be done - at least I can see if I am resulting any value-added-life this year.

about to do list:
Here is the picture why I mention that as my goal after the exam!!!






Pardon me, I am a clean and tidy girl when there is no exam or deadline...
[No time to wash the laundry lah... come and help, can? - with the singaporean accent :) ]






This one is the isle between my bed and my little board.
Yes, everything is on the floor. Actually, this is really convinient you know... why? When you realise that you don't have time to even get to your desk, you can just grab the book in that isle! It must be the book that you are supposed to read for the next exam. Really convinient heh :P ??


[My mom would kill me if she ever see this in her room]

So, after all, one more good news. Remember my previous assignment that was late submitted, it got accepted for - who know - whatever the reason is, but one reason is sure. He defends me in this situation. Just think, would anyone accept your assignment if it was submitted 10 hours after the set deadline? I cannot thank more to Him.

I hope you guys have a happy day. I am going to make myself happy so it will reflects on my coming exam :P

Please pray for your surrounding. Give them your hands, they need you.

God bless!