Obedience

I know that some of you maybe wondering why I would bring this topic out of surface. Well, first, this is my challange throughout the week and most probably going to be on the next couple of weeks and the coming year.

*eventhough the new years resolution was not ready yet*

I might not mention it before how I was 'sent back' to Holland. Hmm, maybe worth to spill out the story a little bit.

Year 2006 is the year where my life transformed to a responsible situation. I learned to survive, to lean on God and to understand about truth. Before I graduated from my bachelor, on the way of finishing my thesis and internship, I prayed to God and ask for his 'favour' in my life... I asked for the chance of getting me near and feel his love more than before - must say that I was stuck in the same level for these years. I was given the chance and here I am in Rotterdam, studying my graduates degree.

The only thing that makes this happens I believe is because my reason to be obedient. That's my only prayer to Him. I received so many blessings, awesome experiences and meeting so many blesses people. I am happy and the very best of all is my family, dad & mom as well as my brother, living healthy and happy. This is the best present God has given me for this year. Yet, it does not mean that I did not reach the lowest point. Breaking up with somebody I love and cherish is hurt, but the two of us know that this was the best way... We do care about each other and therefore would not like to hurt one another. We seperate in a good way and we do keep in touch and help each other.

Few days ago, Lord allows me to face a new test. The test where your obedience was questioned. I know that I can easily fall to the world by just following my flesh, but the heart and mind knocking the obedience. I want what it was offered, but I don't know if this is good things to do. I dreamt about it.... but I don't want to be dragged from the right track.

My obedience was questioned. Really....
It is really simple task, I want it... yet my heart and mind was yearning for obedience.
Lord, the heart of obedience that is what I am asking for....

Dinner was a quality time for me... especially with the 314 sister's...
They do encourage me to obey the Lord for he is counting your obedience and will reward it... I love the way they continue their life... a living obedience person... that is the only thing I have always wanted to learn.

*thank you for your support sists*

Lord, the only one who mighty and fulfilling one...
I pray for the obedience... please keep me in your love... the unfailing love ever...
I will never forget the 'first love' where you hold me tight and forgave me....
You are more than anything to me

Love you so much