Ok.. I think I will just blog the recent meaningful talk I had with one of my best-and proud to be his friend-lad, Mr. SY *which again... a lot!!!* Ok.. decided! We were talking about the grade of worries. Listen, you might find this cliche, but hey, trust me, you will learn something.
My lad is only at his early 20. Yet, the way he thinks sometimes amaze me! *considering the stereotype that woman always grown up faster than a man ;) * He told me that sometime at night he would just think what best for him to do. Going back to Indo and start a new business there... or in the other hand, stay in Europe and yeah... work with a company. He also said that he dreamed about having his own company and be back in Indo. The conversation then goes beyond working... it reaches family matters... and finally it touches our deepest fear and long-life anxiety, the future...
I, in the same way, was experiencing the same. At my early 20, I had a couple of sleepless night where I start worrying things like: What am I going to do after my internship? What if I couldn't payback my tuition fee during my study abroad later? What if I disappointed my parents? and another thousand of "what if" questions.
Long story short, my lad told me how he tries to read a lot of book lately, be it investment, strategy, money making... just anything that will help him to be the future successful young man, with a beautiful wife that fear the Lord - and blessed with some cute and beautiful kids. Just like the way anyone could dream of... even me as a woman will think the same - If I were a man hehehe:)
*Come on!!!Who doesn't want to have a beautiful wife??? Then he is a dumb ;)
Sorry, a man should have a dream to keep on living*
I agreed him instantly! Yet, before long, I asked my self, but what sort of prayer my God? I mean I see people are praying for A, B, and C *and perhaps until Z* but I was not like them - not even close! I mean, I did pray... but things that bugging me, I tend to reject and stop thinking about it at once. *That's why I've never took it serious into prayer - which is of course that's doesn't solve the problem*
Surprisingly, in the mid of our conversation, this young lad come up with the most simple fact on the earth. *Really, a man should learn the way his mind digest* He came up with a conclusion.
"....(dadadada).... yeah.. but, why should we fear? Look, as far as I can see, my God has provided me the best one. I want an A, he give me B and C too. I wish for an 8, he shows me 8-and-a-half. I request for enough food, he brings me plenty! Whatever I have ever wish for, he fulfilled it more than I had expected. Thus, in that way, I guess another special needs like a God-fearful wife and future wealth would be a piece of cake too, wouldn't it?"
*I felt like slapped with a tender kiss*
Hoohohohohoho.... my my... I just realized that it is so true... damn true!!! The fact that I was so eager to study abroad when I was a 14 years old teenage girl, fulfilled. The wish that I could go to a better school, given! The opportunity that comes only once, prepared for me! I mean... gosh, where the hell have I been??? *slap slap* Every path in my life was being care so much that even when there is a hole, he has prepared an alternative way for me...
*Oh Lord, really.. who am I that you are mindful of me...*
epilogue
I like the way David, the king over Israel - a man that blessed with a genuine heart, prays:
Then King David went in and sat before the LORD, and he said:
"Who am I, O Sovereign LORD, and what is my family, that you have brought me this far? And as if this were not enough in your sight, O Sovereign LORD, you have also spoken about the future of the house of your servant. Is this your usual way of dealing with man, O Sovereign LORD ?
II Samuel 7:18-19
If God could leave me a comment, he must have said:
"Off course... what else?"
Merry Christmas to you all... really sorry for the late posting...
Enjoy the Christmas and the holiday...
I miss my family... so much... so much...
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